In a previous life I would have sat through a two hour PD session, then probably bemoaned my aching back afterward.
I also probably would have, in some way, evaluated the quality of the PD by how my head and body felt afterward.
Then I would have been judgy, that somehow the overall quality of PD needs to be changed, personalized, or updated.
All of these positions are flawed. All passive-aggressively critique from the sidelines. And all of these are completely alien to my personal pursuit of professional development.
The professional development moments that I have chased on my own this year have been intrinsically motivated. And the awesome I found is always pretty much smorgasbordian.
But that is me driving the bus.
I learned when and where according to best fit. I found my why and often many other people’s why as well. And in doing so, I feel like my expanded and supported views of EDU equally helped me to help others as for myself.
When I reflect on the learning spaces that I have created for my students, I’m feeling underwhelmed.
I really do believe that all learning is personalizable. Up to now, that meant how the curriculum is approached, rarely have I explored the positive impact this could have on learning spaces. Going into 2017-18, I will be rocking the phrase ‘nothing’s precious‘ -striving to shift through my comfort zone to see the unintentional outcomes of weak learning space design and push forward with as many student-centered design decisions as possible.
AND the digital reach that I have pursued has not yet broken me out of it.
I am reminded of this daily, I guess in a good way, with every PD session I attend outside of my school board and with every podcast and with every virtual high five I see on Twitter.
My exploration of the outer reaches of EDU has always provoked new thinking and despite some differences, it is still unfortunately easy to find the similar.
Sometimes, I notice that I have just stepped into someone else’s silo. Bigger maybe, but still a silo. I feel kinda okay with this. Kinda. Mostly because my search is not over. Every time I reach out into my PLN I try to include more views, angles, dissonance, inspiration. However, the monochromatic nature of my sources has got to change. What am I missing? Who am I missing? Why did I miss it/them?
I found a bunch of post-its stuck -in-silo reflections at the bottom of my book bag, the scrap thoughts follow …
…build a silo, then add a window, skylight, deck, a garden, doors, add a playspace, invite people over, go visit friends, take some time to sit outside … maybe forget your keys, wander the neighbourhood …
Building a brand is dangerous, I have noticed how ideas start to close rank, replicate, congratulate, and wither when a book deal hits social media.
Dissonance is a necessary tension for deep learning.
Time away from EDU builds better thoughtfuel and imaginative mind traps to capture new views in the wilds.
I feel like a whole lot of random is shaking out of this ‘end of year’ moment. Things that I thought I would keep doing I am suddenly less than happy to continue and other odd pieces are rising back up into my view. [check out my flipgrid questions]
All in all, it seems like, in addition to my disquieted mind I feel a change happening. It feels like nerves, or like an empty stomach grumble.
Internal. Primal. Uncontrollable.
And even though I often approach the even-keeled reliability of ‘truth’ with healthy skepticism, I am off balance enough right now to crave some truth.
So I’ll toss that comfort to the wall.
See what sticks.
Here’s where I am ending the school year.
Maybe these are only my truths for right now.
Or they are just my current provocations.
I do know that any collisions with my pedagogy will level-up my game.