Interim – Day 8 – release

Over a weekend I interviewed and successfully gained the position of Interim Head of Special Education at my High School. The position is short term, 10 days in length, but could be extended until the end of the semester.

I have been in Special Education for over a decade, but this is my first position of responsibility in this department.

These posts are going to focus on the ideas and questions that popped up on the daily.

Some got answered, some are still in process. Most questions I had some clue how to action, but even more have me chasing squirrels to find answers.

LIVING THE QUESTIONS [IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER]

How did I lead in the past 8 days? Where did I lead us to in the past 8 days? Why did I lead us to those places?

Was that department meeting a valuable use of our time? What adjustments need to be made to increase access, interest, and engagement?

What about the peeps that do not need me to lead them?

I have the itchy-sweater-feeling that I should be doing something right now.

Being present is difficult. How do I shake the feeling that an unknown deadline is looming?

Today was about connecting with my team. Damn it felt good to work on a thing together.

Interim – Day 6 – reality

Over a weekend I interviewed and successfully gained the position of Interim Head of Special Education at my High School. The position is short term, 10 days in length, but could be extended until the end of the semester.

I have been in Special Education for over a decade, but this is my first position of responsibility in this department.

These posts are going to focus on the ideas and questions that popped up on the daily.

Some got answered, some are still in process. Most questions I had some clue how to action, but even more have me chasing squirrels to find answers.

LIVING THE QUESTIONS [IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER]

Whatever amount of time I think a thing will take- double it. One move is consistently taking two steps to make.

Need more long exhales. Need to stay off my toes … feel like I am constantly preparing to launch.

Losing track of my thoughts. Constantly.

I am manufacturing, noticing, and stressing about stress simultaneously. How is this even possible?

35 minute parent phone call- me all listening, them all big emotions.

This is not solvable right now, is it?

Avoid mono sensing. Stay open. See the obstacles as paths to possible solutions.

“It depends…”

That strange moment when you finish a task that Person A asked you to take care of, then Person A tells you to give it to Person B, and then Person B tells you the task was already completed…but thanks.

“I have a budget request…”

7:45 AM I arrived at school, 5 minutes later it was 4:30 PM.

Interim – Day 5 – ejection

Over a weekend I interviewed and successfully gained the position of Interim Head of Special Education at my High School. The position is short term, 10 days in length, but could be extended until the end of the semester.

I have been in Special Education for over a decade, but this is my first position of responsibility in this department.

These posts are going to focus on the ideas and questions that popped up on the daily.

Some got answered, some are still in process. Most questions I had some clue how to action, but even more have me chasing squirrels to find answers.

LIVING THE QUESTIONS [IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER]

Who will not have access to our department meeting time? Why?

When I say “department”, who do I see?

Can I make space for this interruption? How will I recover my time?

This is the work. The interruptions are the fabric that I gotta flex with.

The depth of wisdom in this department is awesome.

Feeling like I am drinking from the firehose. How can I manage the advice, ‘by the ways’, and emails to sustain my work and support others?

“I will circle back to this” is now my mantra, commitment, and assurance.

Gotta make more time for “What if?”

Feeling the weight of “other duties as assigned by the principal” factor right about now.

Who have I not met yet at this school?

Do I know all of my colleagues names?